Mood Swings

This has been on my mind for some time already... Has been bugging me for a bit.

Recently, I'm back to something.
But its not like the last time leh. This time seems to affect me a quite a bit more.

I've been drinking like close to 3 ltr of water each day. Mouth very dry lor... Just keep drinking and visiting the toilet. Hahaha... My colleagues think I'm weird.

Been having lots of mood swings. Feeling grouchy, moody, tired, whatever shitty feeling. The last time was still quite controllable. But like I said, this round seems to affect me more. Sometimes I just lose it, so the person who happens to piss me off a little, will get it back real bad.

One incident, this friend was going through a tough time. At first, I was like ok and consoling blah blah... But days later, friend was still brooding over it and still didn't have the mood for anything. The two of us and another friend had sort of planned some activity for that day already.
So the night before the activity, tried to arrange with my friend but all I got was "I don't know" answers to almost everything. Got me a little pissed, but never mind, I endured cause I told myself friend was going through rough time.
The day itself, kept on calling and sms to find out details. But friend seemed to have MIA, then finally called back and still gave me the "I don't know" answers.
Ended the call and called the other friend who was asking what was the plans. So that friend indirectly also got a bit of attitude from me. =X
Was like saying stuff like to just don't go lah, since friend everything don't know and can't be bothered.
Then other friend went to call friend and friend called me after that. Friend suddenly seemed to have snapped out of 'lost world' and seemed more enthu about the activity. But then I was already pissed. So I was scolding and scolding and even more scolding during the conversation.
Ok.. I must admit, it felt damn good to let it out lah...
But after that, I felt damn bad. Very guilty lor.
Imagine you are experiencing some bad times and you still get scolded for feeling rotten. Makes you feel worst right?
Shitt... I know I was in the wrong lah. Shouldn't have done that.

What would you do if you were that friend?
Would you just let me rant it out and try to calm me down?
Would you even bother to continue talking to me?
Would you just hang up the phone and don't bother anymore?

Friend: Aiyoo... You know that I'm just affected by what happened right? I'm ok now, so what time shall we meet?
Me: -scoldings and more scoldings-
Friend: Ehh... Don't like that lahh... Sorry, alright? Blah blah blah

I think my friend is super nice...
Really!

Glad to have this person as a friend.
=)
If my friend ever reads this, sorry for erupting and thank you for your approach to the situation.

Thoughts

Having my off day and I've decided to spend the day at my godma's house.

Have to take some time off to visit my granny! Haven't seen her for a while.

Here I am now at her PC, trying to blog with Maxie is on my lap.
Silly doggie keeps pawing my hand down to my lap and happily steps there for extra balance.
I'm having some difficulity blogging while chatting.

Grace wants to learn diving. I also want! But I don't know how to swim...
My work schedule isn't flexible enough for me to take up courses.
Also need time to save up for money.
Idea KIV-ed for the time being.

Planning for Js's bday celebration too! Dinner at where? Then after that do what? Still waiting for the bday girl to call the shots.

Bahhh... Tickets for the play is sold out already. Don't need to watch already. Hurr hurr... We dragged a bit too long.

Boreddd!

Feeling kinda moody at the moment.
Tired but yet I don't seem to be able to sleep.

Worked at another outlet today.
Right... So I've officially worked at all the outlets before already.

Rarhhh... There's like so many things on my mind that I don't know where to start.
Can I just not bother about anything?

Perhaps its a good idea if I just go lie down and quickly drift into lala land.